There is a never ending list of silly mistakes I made in the past that will bring about life-changing results. I would feel remorseful only after thinking through what I really did. Then I would start worrying as if tomorrow is going to be the end of the world.
This habit of mine is really making me sick of myself. Subconsciously, it's as if I feel that some excitement and drastic changes would make my smooth and perfect little life the more livelier and happening.
A fortune teller once told me... “You are born to be lucky. Your life is almost perfect. One of the loopholes in your life is that you worry too much about things. You have sleepless nights thinking about them. You lose appetite stressing over them. You can't stop thinking pessimistically about the results you might get. These anxieties you have are really unnecessary because things always turn out to be just fine.”
Today, I did a silly thing again. I really hope this time round, the fortune teller will be right once again. If things were to turn out wrong, I’m going to be embroiled in lots of hassles, naggings, and troubles. I would be the one and only silliest person in history who had ever done something that brainless and stupid.
~in silence, I pray~
