Puzzled with "It"

It has been awhile since I last dreamt about you,
I never stop contemplating our never lasting relationship.
As we thought that the bond we made never did work out,
I told myself profusely never to bother your life as much as I did.

At the time when I was thinking that "It" is almost ending,
You never fail to appear and reappear continuously in my Every dreams.
Telling me how much you want "It" to move on more than usual,
While occasionally informing me that you never knew how much I cared for you?

I feared that I had made the wrong decision for letting you go,
Forgetting that a great effort had been made to bring you into my solitary life.
I am willing to go through thick and thin with you if the decision made is right,
However your confessions to me never fail to baffle Every single bits of me.

P.s. "It" has been occurring for the past three consecutive days and I'm so confused, making you confuse too :)

Resurrection

6 days ago, the feeling of anxiety took over me. Flipping through the Macroeconomics book wasn't a good idea. As I tried to comprehend the Phillips curve, my mind was floating away, thinking about this very day. 12 hours a day was never enough for me as I perspired and struggled through the process with much perseverance. Laughter from my family distracted me and tempted me into stopping. My brain was filled with graphs and information that I found myself incapable of remembering every single thing that was said to me.

Time passed swiftly. The weekend was over in a blink of an eye. I was partially relieved as I covered most of the chapters. Confidence was eventually building up in me. Until Monday night came. I suffered from slight insomnia. I tried to 'coax' myself into sleeping but as usual, it didn't work out. Surprisingly, I did not suffer from any fatigue the following morning.

This day was the final day of the dreadful examination. 5 hours ago, I wrote the last number for the month. I was satisfied. The feeling of freedom and a sense of relieve was beyond description. The moment the great burden alighted from my shoulder was fulfilling. And I was once again... FREED!


Hey! I'm so sorry for being so inactive lately. The past two weeks was real hectic but now.. I've got nothing to do with the exception of watching the television and playing, playing, playing and of course, blogging.. if possible.